Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Today was a horrible day.
Woke up with a severe headache. Am prone to migraines so I spent the entire day hoping it wouldn't turn into one, and chugging down a gazillion cups of coffee at uni (which for a change, actually tasted pretty great and soothing) and trying to study mindless research methods. My mood went from bad to worse to plain i-want-to-break-down-in-tears-and-cry.
Now as I sit down to write, I wonder what stopped me from crying. Was it the crazy MSN joint conversation (which is in my inbox, named as 'the weirdest chat ever'), the yoga breathing exercise, making fun of Pnut's 2030 plan or watching Coupling at home?
Or is it the fact that while my bad mood is infectious, tears are infinitely worse. I've mastered the 'i will not cry now, i will cry later when home and alone'; and now I can't do it at all.
I think sometimes you get so used to being there for someone else, that you forget to be there for yourself. And thats never good, right?
Woke up with a severe headache. Am prone to migraines so I spent the entire day hoping it wouldn't turn into one, and chugging down a gazillion cups of coffee at uni (which for a change, actually tasted pretty great and soothing) and trying to study mindless research methods. My mood went from bad to worse to plain i-want-to-break-down-in-tears-and-cry.
Now as I sit down to write, I wonder what stopped me from crying. Was it the crazy MSN joint conversation (which is in my inbox, named as 'the weirdest chat ever'), the yoga breathing exercise, making fun of Pnut's 2030 plan or watching Coupling at home?
Or is it the fact that while my bad mood is infectious, tears are infinitely worse. I've mastered the 'i will not cry now, i will cry later when home and alone'; and now I can't do it at all.
I think sometimes you get so used to being there for someone else, that you forget to be there for yourself. And thats never good, right?
posted by saba at 1:29 AM, | 
Sometimes, when you are doing good for others you dont feel at that moment but later on, when you sit and think over it, you realize that you bought smiles for someone.