thats me in the spotlight, losing my religion
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
This summer has been one of toughest experiences of my life as an AIESECer. I feel like I could write an 'Being LCP for Dummies' guide, just based on the past two months.
This summer..
I have felt alone, exhausted, sick, depressed, angry, overemotional.
I have been rude and distant.
I have cried and wondered whether it was all worth it.
I have spent countless nights awake worrying and planning.
I have watched friends turn into complete strangers and complete strangers turn into friends.
I have cherished every success that has come along.
I have tried to change.
I have pushed myself harder than I ever have.
I have found peace in other people's happiness.
I have laughed at silly jokes and sillier gossip.
I have been thankful for every kind word, everyone who took the time out to listen, everyone who told me to take a break (even if i didn't), every dinner invitation where I could actually relax for a change.
I wish could tell all of you how much it meant to me that you were there.
I don't know what I will be doing this time next year. But I hope that there will be a happier, kinder Saba reading this in July 2007.
This summer..
I have felt alone, exhausted, sick, depressed, angry, overemotional.
I have been rude and distant.
I have cried and wondered whether it was all worth it.
I have spent countless nights awake worrying and planning.
I have watched friends turn into complete strangers and complete strangers turn into friends.
I have cherished every success that has come along.
I have tried to change.
I have pushed myself harder than I ever have.
I have found peace in other people's happiness.
I have laughed at silly jokes and sillier gossip.
I have been thankful for every kind word, everyone who took the time out to listen, everyone who told me to take a break (even if i didn't), every dinner invitation where I could actually relax for a change.
I wish could tell all of you how much it meant to me that you were there.
I don't know what I will be doing this time next year. But I hope that there will be a happier, kinder Saba reading this in July 2007.
posted by saba at 3:13 AM, | 
4 Comments:
All in all, you have given your best to your job and I can't imagine anyone else do it better. Proud of you! *hugs* (yes yes we are doing it for now;))
just remember, at the end of it all..it is only about the relationships you built, the people you respect (along with the reasons you respect them) and friendships for the future.
its a time to measure your own abilities or lack of them. the latter very rarely because you'll push to overcome any situation. your words reminded me of my LC days so much...
cheers saba. although we never met it amazes me how some things never change.
its a time to measure your own abilities or lack of them. the latter very rarely because you'll push to overcome any situation. your words reminded me of my LC days so much...
cheers saba. although we never met it amazes me how some things never change.
Saba, as the bloggin suks person mentioned above,, this is so very touchy!
Just wana let yu kno tht ur doing an amazing job! noone could hav done it better! Seriously Proud of u ! :)
Ur the BEST LCP!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could have ever imagined of!
Cheer up! we have to rock at JNC yar! MWA
Just wana let yu kno tht ur doing an amazing job! noone could hav done it better! Seriously Proud of u ! :)
Ur the BEST LCP!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could have ever imagined of!
Cheer up! we have to rock at JNC yar! MWA
I hope i had been successful in putting a smile on your face even once! Trust me next year when you will reflect upon your past you would appreciate the perpetual battle you had to fight with yourself cuz you will be a much stronger person! And i strongly beleive in that!
And yes i will wait to watch out for that "happier, kinder" saba!
Love you babez!