Saba Imtiaz: Everyday is a winding road..

These have also not been an easy few weeks, because many long forgotten memoirs have popped up. Of Eids gone by, good, bad and worse, of old relationships, the pain and happiness of which I thought I’d forgotten, of old friends who I no longer keep in touch with and vice versa, and of seeing my parents in and out of hospitals for most of my life. I think what upsets me the most is that I have no control over my mind. I thought I was stronger, that I had effectively blocked so much out of my head and heart, that I would never be troubled again by the years gone by. Yet, the moment I am alone for a protracted period of time / the infrequent nightmares / the events surrounding my friends’ lives / the song lyrics that mirror events in my life / – I stop and I can’t take it anymore because it all comes back.

I want the eternal sunshine of a spotless mind.

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