Friday, April 27, 2007
I have been trying to write this for a couple of days now. And then I was watching Grey's Anatomy and a line from the show struck out "Some people believe, that without history, our lives amount to nothing."
For the past few days, between counting down days to my departure to Jordan (17 days to go now) and looking at old pictures, I have wondered about the series of events that has led me to this juncture in life. From the unknown to the surety that what I am about to embark on is the right thing.
That feeling - that this is right - is often connected with those big, life-changing events. Its how we somehow try to explain to other people why we fall in love on first sight, fall in love with the 'wrong' people, believe in a cause no one ever associated us with, switch careers and degrees and generally take on new challenges.
Except it is hard to put that 'right' feeling down in words, and hard to explain. And for someone as clearly dramatic as me, who can picture moments and words that have changed my life or the way I have made decisions, this is odd - but I wouldn't have it any other way.
For the past few days, between counting down days to my departure to Jordan (17 days to go now) and looking at old pictures, I have wondered about the series of events that has led me to this juncture in life. From the unknown to the surety that what I am about to embark on is the right thing.
That feeling - that this is right - is often connected with those big, life-changing events. Its how we somehow try to explain to other people why we fall in love on first sight, fall in love with the 'wrong' people, believe in a cause no one ever associated us with, switch careers and degrees and generally take on new challenges.
Except it is hard to put that 'right' feeling down in words, and hard to explain. And for someone as clearly dramatic as me, who can picture moments and words that have changed my life or the way I have made decisions, this is odd - but I wouldn't have it any other way.
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