Rants of the day!

Thursday, May 29, 2008
Rants of the day:
  • Where are your friends when you need them? Stuck in a meeting, THATS where. Kambakhton.
  • Thankyou, dear intl text messaging system, for sending me the same messages about 20 times.
  • Why are all taxi drivers becoming slightly neurotic in the summer? Though today's was a nice guy. He practiced his Urdu with me 'kya haal hai, bhaisaab!' and then we ranted about other drivers who ask all girls if they're married
  • I am sick of inventing new occupations for my fake husband/fiance.
  • Why is everything so expensive? I hate 11% inflation (or is it more?), and everytime I convert how much money I've spent on just buying potatoes into rupees I have a slight heart attack
  • Also..why are books so expensive? Ebooks are just not the same..
  • Why am I addicted to Facebook and Gmail? WHY.
  • I am so incredibly stressed. Even happy music isn't helping.
  • Why is everyone asking me why the HIMYM season has ended? Its not like I work for Barney Stinson or something.
More later..

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Stuck in a vicious cycle..

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Monday night
9:00 PM: Decide to pull all nighter and finish data input into online accounting system
1:00 AM: Realize when deciding to pull all nighter should check whether there's food in the house
2:00 AM: Have panic attack over error in transactions. Get on Skype - Rosa, NL's VPF is working late too and helps me sort the problem out.
2:30 AM: Realize there really was no error
3:00 AM: Friends begin to go offline. Start missing home. Wish Dad was around to give me a plate of french fries. Wish I could hug my cat. Wish I was 5 years old and didn't have to do this.
5:00 AM: Look up and realize it is light outside.
5:15 AM: Go to bed, because there's an error in the system. Need to wait for customer support to reply back.
6:00 AM: Still awake. ARGH.

Tuesday:
11:00 AM: Woken by phone call by external. Set up meeting for Wednesday over the phone and go back to sleep.
11:30 AM: Drag myself out of bed. Customer support has replied back! I can get back to work
1:00 PM: Do laundry thinking it is Wednesday (cos thats the day we usually do laundry).
2:00 PM: Have sudden panic attack that have missed meeting. Check laptop and realize its actually Tuesday and meeting is tomorrow.
5:00 PM: Laptop screen begins to blur. Tell myself I cannot pass out. Succeed.
7:30 PM (endless cups of coffee, Tang and tea later): Look up and realize it is dark outside and I should turn the lights on
8:00 PM: Finally finish transactions. Everything's done. Cannot feel any sense of accomplishment, cos I can't feel anything at all other than overwhelming tiredness.
8:10 PM: Collapse in shower. Drag myself out and resist urge to wear pajamas since I need to go out and eat.
8:30 PM: Find myself lying on bed resisting urge to go to sleep.
8:45 PM: Drag myself to shawarma place. Try and not collapse on street by eating fries out of the takeaway bag.
11:00 PM: Lie down to go to sleep
12:30 AM: Still awake. Decide to start working instead and curse myself for not being able to sleep.
3:00 AM: Finally feel sleepy. Go to sleep.
11:00 AM: Alarm. Jolted awake and realize have 2 meetings to get to...

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Going somewhere and getting nowhere

Sunday, May 25, 2008
Over the past few weekends, I've been in a bus/cab going somewhere - Damascus, Aqaba, Damascus again..its another long weekend and it feels rather weird to be in Amman, despite the fact that I spend most of my weekends in the city.

I've lived here for a little over a year now (375 days to be precise) and I now feel oddly disconnected. I can't seem to put my finger on it, but something has changed in how I view the city and the people. I don't know if its disillusion, recent events, or the realizations that bubble up to your head when you have the time to sit and reflect about your life. I hope the feeling goes away soon because I want to look back on my last days here with a sense of accomplishment and happiness..and not this.

In other news - I have unfortunately had to see - the worst talent show known to mankind - Star Academy. We were driving back from the fantastic reception event at Huda's only to see a huge congregation of people at Abdoun. Apparently a huge screen had been put up since one of the finalists was Jordanian. Memories of the endless campaign that was 'vote for Petra as one of the new seven wonders..' came to mind, and a bunch of us saw a bit of the final at Books@ when we ended up there.

Simon Cowell would have had a field day. Heck - any one with even the least bit of musical sense would have had a field day. It made for great entertainment value though - the screechy voices, the elaborate sets, the backup dancers, staring with shock at the elaborate nature of the show and trying to figure out who was the worst of the lot.

I spent last night laughing insanely over Skype/Gtalk with Sharz and Rabia. Many a devious plan and fictional scenario were devised and brilliant memories from university relived. I woke up this morning and was trying to guess what time it when the phone rang with aapa and my sister on the other end, having breakfast together. Yay for all the amazing people in my life :)

In other random news - the taxi driver sagas continue (the servees driver from Damascus got into a huge argument with another passenger over buying cigarettes from the duty free, yesterday one driver told me that I could only learn Arabic if I live in an Arab country (yes, finally some common sense!), and everyone who has tried to extort money off me for nominal fares has been yelled at.)

And cultural diversity has taken a new turn - atleast four of the waiters at Hashem yesterday could speak a smattering of English (new guys hired to withstand the onslaught of the tourist season?) I'm making plans to have a Bollywood movie session with an intern from the US and might cook biryani and chapatis with a Kenyan intern, and most surprising of all - Alex (who, as the oft repeated story goes, is originally from Belarus, grew up in Australia and lives in Bahrain) pronounces Arabic letters way better than I ever will.

Off to enjoy the rest of the long weekend. Did I mention its Independence Day today? And we're off to see what is rumored to be a military parade. (I have already started getting flak for this from Sharz, but I'm justifying this as its fine when the country isn't really ruled by the military..)

Update: And Nadim's blog has the sad saga of the parade that didn't happen..

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Back in Damascus

Saturday, May 17, 2008
From the very talented Kay..which totally fits my mood as I spend yet another weekend in sunny Damascus. I love random trips. More later..right now I am marveling that Blogger isn't banned..as are Facebook, blogspot addresses, YouTube..

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Zealous Autconfig

Wednesday, May 07, 2008
I love xkcd!
 
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Spring madness

Friday, May 02, 2008
Written: Friday morning, 4:00 AM

Have spent the past four days in a state of lost confusion and panic. Frantic emails, Skype chats all afternoon with hourly updates, ringing phones. And all of this for a very small role in getting Jordan's partners to the MENA Symposium - which didn't help soothe my nerves with having our own event coming up in 27 days. Tick tock, tick tock. I have spent half a year working on this and as the final product comes together, I feel more on the edge than I have ever been. I can't seem to wrap my head around anything at all.

The days spent in Damascus have left me longing for more - I almost went to the Embassy to get another visa for the weekend. Everyone says the haze of Damascus fades but I can hardly wait to go back, even for a day.

I have about 45 days left before I go back home to start a new(?) chapter. My life has come full circle right now. Opportunities I would have applied for or would have killed to get two years ago are now being offered. A part of me feels flattered..the other: more conscious than ever that the decision I am taking to go back home is the right one. Dhruv's recent blog post (a must read, btw) is a scary reminder of how close I was to going down the same road. I read and re-read it again and again, it was like an eerily accurate description of my own state of my mind at some crucial points this year, down in black and white.

I am glad for the stabilizing influences in my life, the sometimes slow and painful process of trying to understand why I need to do this, but every time I think about going back home: I smile, I can't wait to be understood (literally, and not so literally) and no longer irrelevant in the bigger picture. Even watching Gossip Girl makes me miss home - we have our very own text messaging network that I will finally be able to respond back to now, unfettered by expensive int'l text messaging rates.

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Update: Saturday night, 11:00 PM

Back from Aqaba for Labor Day weekend! Aqaba was hellishly crowded - and reminded me more and more of Karachi, especially the incredibly kind hospitality of the Momani household and the boat ride on the Red Sea. Aqaba will always be one of my favorite places ever. Can't wait to go on a trip - replete with the most awesome seafood ever and the craziness of friends - at home soon!

:) The Arab Revolution flag On the Red Sea, with Eilat in the distance

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